I need to apologize to you my dear readers. I’ve been missing for far to long. I’ll catch up and tell you whats been going on.
I have Charcot or CMT as I’ve said before. I also have neuoropothy and both have spread to my hands which makes it difficult typing. I had surgery a few weeks ago for Syndesmosis. Since the Charcot has crushed half of my ankle bones the tibia and fibia had pulled apart. That is syndesmosis and the dr drilled holes in the bones and pulled them back together. I am also non weight bearing on that foot which means a knee scooter or wheel chair. Unfortunately, using my hands that much really reeks havoc on them.
The Best Laid Plans
So, I’m off my feet, mostly in bed so my leg could be elevated and I should be able to get a lot done right? That’s what I planned. You know what they say about the best laid plans. I’ve been in pain, ( not thinking straight), foggy from pain meds (very foggy), or just no words at all would come together. I’ve felt isolated, unable to go anywhere alone and very dependent on others. I hate being a burden and not being able to help my family with barely anything. I’ve had to regroup, make plans and follow through. I need to be thankful for the things that I am able to do. I did my daughters hair and makeup Saturday night for prom. Prayed and read with my children. Held my grandbabies. Look for the good. It’s hard. But it’s the hard God gave me and I must do my best.
Your Hard Things in Life
This isn’t something most of you will deal with but you will have other things. Everyone has hard things in life. What hard thing is in your life right now? Depression, relationship problems, finances, health? Each of you have something that is a struggle. It’s hard to do the right thing all the time. To pull up your boot straps and work. There are days when it would be much easier to watch tv all day. Read a book. Play hooky in life. We have so many manners of escapism available today. Put on your big girl panties and do it.
I heard this song by Laura Story and was blessed. It reminded me that God’s way are not our ways. He doesn’t always answer our prayers in the way we think they should be answered. The days I think He is silent are days He still hears my prayers. And He hears yours every day. So when the hard things come how do you deal with it?